annoys the shit out of me that
the people who have the least
amount of things to actually talk
about are the people who post
the most shit on facebook.

girl on my newsfeed changed
her name ever-so-cleverly from
'cynthia' to 'cunthia'.
oh youre so hard and creative.
look how fucking dynamic you are
by changing a letter in your name to
make it a derogatory play-on-words.
do you not have respect for your gender
at all? cunt was used
to dehumanize women into body parts; like
their only valuable asset are their
reproductive organs.
way to fucking go, genius.

ugh, townies.
dont stand around me too long,
i dont want to catch your stupid.
have fun flipping burgers til your 70.

ill be skinny one day,
i swear to fucking god.
dont care if its through
exercise or anorexia.
one day ill look in the
mirror and actually like
what i see. but by then
ill have my tits done,
teeth veneered, and a couple
ribs knocked out.

since my personality
is shit, might as well try to
gain something
by becoming just another
sex-objectified tool in this
male dominated hierarchy.

i have a serious problem.

sigh.

the season of shorts has began
and my fat ass is getting on that treadmill

aaron just broke up with me.

"i love you maura nicole, and i dont know who cares"


*supposed to be, "I dont care who knows"

cut all my hair off and dyed it red.
i look like tank girl.

i dont give a flying fuck anymore.
christmas sucks, as usual.

dad got fired
mom got a raise
what else is new

im applying for food stamps
which ill probably get, working
35 hours a week and having 16 credit
hours of school.

its annoying how people dont realize
just how fucking spoiled they are.

i forgot about aaron's birthday.
and i couldn't feel shittier about it.

Ran into Melnyk today.
Wasn't expecting that.

FUCK. MY. LIFE.

ive been having thoughts lately.

bad thoughts.

self-destructive thoughts.

very, very self-destructive thoughts.


im headed right back into that hole
i know only too well.