it is five am.

and you are lissssssssstening...


to los angeles.





I FUCKING LOVE MY LIFE

too..

much..

cramming..

brain..

exploshunz..

so as it turns out, i missed
two required homework quizzes
for my college algebra class
over thanksgiving break.

how douchy of my professor
to assign two homework quizzes
due the same day. not only that,
but the same day everyone was
leaving to go home for break.

and now i just failed the one
that was due today..

ouch.

sometimes i wish i could just drink myself away..

sometimes i wish i could just be in his arms..

sometimes i wish that i didnt think the things i did about people i call my friends..

sometimes i wish i wasnt so dramatic sometimes.

today was just another day.
just another day that i hardly remember already

if you click it you get an enlarged view


he did this in a few hours.

sometimes that boy blows my mind..

<3333

i think i might transfer to UCF.

when the lights
go down
in the cittyyyyy...

ive been using this song to try to
distract from the fact that mom sent
melody a text message while the two of
us were at work that said, "would you
be mad at me if i moved to texas?"

ill be fine.




so you think you're lonely?
well my friend, im lonely too...
i wanna get back
to my cityyyy
whoaaaaaaaaaaaahhh..

i just ate some cream cheese and it was delicious, except it would have been more delicious if i had some crackers or something..

i worked out today. i feel great. im going to start weight lifting and such again for at least an hour a day. i figure that an hour wont kill me and maybe ill gradually start to feel better about myself, so thats good. i mean, i dont hate the way i look but i know theres always room for improvement and i mean i could be in much better shape than i am right now and i think it would be good for me to focus and do something proactive, maybe alleviate some stress.. and feeling better about my body image wouldnt hurt, either.

i kind of want to play twilight princess but im feeling kind of sleepy.

maybe i'll just lay my head down for a bit..

wait for a text or a phone call..

hrmm that bed is looking comfortable.

i should be writing those essays..

im sorry
im sorry
im sorrrrrrrrrrrrry

i did -not- mean for this to happen tonight..

i hope when you're okay you read this you understand...

ughhh....

not good.

i dont want you to be alone.